{"id":5823,"date":"2020-07-01T07:52:33","date_gmt":"2020-07-01T07:52:33","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/an-unbearable-lightness-of-turning-to-50\/"},"modified":"2024-09-02T21:52:16","modified_gmt":"2024-09-02T21:52:16","slug":"50-olmanin-dayanilmaz-hafifligi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/50-olmanin-dayanilmaz-hafifligi\/","title":{"rendered":"50 Olman\u0131n Dayan\u0131lmaz Hafifli\u011fi"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>(Yazar\u0131 sesli dinlemek i\u00e7in t\u0131klay\u0131n.)<\/p>\n<audio class=\"wp-audio-shortcode\" id=\"audio-5823-1\" preload=\"none\" style=\"width: 100%;\" controls=\"controls\"><source type=\"audio\/mpeg\" src=\"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/11\/8-50-olmanin-dayanilmaz-hafifligi-2.m4a?_=1\" \/><a href=\"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/11\/8-50-olmanin-dayanilmaz-hafifligi-2.m4a\">https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/11\/8-50-olmanin-dayanilmaz-hafifligi-2.m4a<\/a><\/audio>\n<p>Bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 Barcelona\u2019da, takribi 80 g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc karantinada ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim evimde yemek masamda oturmu\u015f yaz\u0131yorum. Muhtemelen de, bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 ancak her \u015feyin yolunda gitti\u011fi taktirde, 1 Temmuz 2020 g\u00fcn\u00fcnde, ben Barcelona\u2019dan \u0130stanbul\u2019a u\u00e7arken okuyor olacaks\u0131n\u0131z&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bug\u00fcn 24 Haziran 2020&#8230; \u00c7ar\u015famba&#8230; Tam\u0131 tam\u0131na 50 y\u0131l \u00f6nce bug\u00fcn, saat 19:32\u2019de d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, ilk nefesimi alm\u0131\u015f, muhtemelen a\u011flamay\u0131p, popoma doktorun bir fiske \u015faklatmas\u0131yla a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, bilin\u00e7sizce ve i\u00e7g\u00fcd\u00fcsel ilk anlar\u0131m\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamand\u0131r. Garip ama ger\u00e7ek&#8230; 50!<\/p>\n<p>50 ilgin\u00e7 bir say\u0131. 50 ya\u015f\u0131nda olmak da, rakamsal bak\u0131mdan da ilgin\u00e7&#8230; Neden mi&#8230; \u015f\u00f6yle anlatay\u0131m&#8230; Biyolojik olarak evet, 50 ya\u015f\u0131mday\u0131m. Ama ka\u00e7 hissediyorum, ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorum&#8230; Ne 50 hissediyor, ne de g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Bazen 20\u2019lerimde, bazen 30\u2019lar\u0131mda, bazen de 40\u2019lar\u0131mda hissediyorum&#8230; Muhtemelen, sadece 20-30-40\u2019lar\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan, ve 50\u2019leri bilmedi\u011fim ve deneyimlemedi\u011fimden olsa gerek ki, 50 ya\u015f\u0131nda hissetmiyorum&#8230; Zaten, 50 ya\u015f\u0131nda hissetmek de ne demek ki?! 50 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcyor olmam \u201callah vergisi\u201d&#8230; hatta can\u0131m babam\u0131n genlerinin vergisi desem daha do\u011fru olacak. 80\u2019lerinin ba\u015f\u0131nda oldu\u011fu halde, 70\u2019lerinde gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnmesi, son 10 sene \u00f6ncesine kadar sa\u00e7\u0131nda eser miktarda beyaz sa\u00e7 olmas\u0131, \u00e7ok da ge\u00e7erli bir g\u00f6sterge. Sonu\u00e7ta, 40\u2019lar\u0131mda g\u00f6sterdi\u011fim do\u011frudur. Biraz deli doluluk, y\u00fcksek enerji ve ince v\u00fccut yap\u0131s\u0131 olunca, do\u011fal olarak 40\u2019lar\u0131mda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor olabilirim.<\/p>\n<p>\u015eimdi, as\u0131l komik bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131ma gelece\u011fim&#8230; 50 olman\u0131n dayan\u0131lmaz hafifli\u011fine&#8230; hafiflik kilodan, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015ften veya hissetme bak\u0131m\u0131ndan de\u011fil&#8230; ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 fark\u0131ndal\u0131k ve bilin\u00e7 a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan inceleyince apayr\u0131 bir tablo \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor. Son 5-6 y\u0131ld\u0131r fark\u0131ndal\u0131k, Mindfulness, bilin\u00e7, dikkat ve fark\u0131ndal\u0131kla ya\u015fam bi\u00e7iminin \u00f6nemini ke\u015ffettim, ya\u015fam\u0131ma felsefe olarak uyarlad\u0131m ve her f\u0131rsatta bu felsefeyle ya\u015famay\u0131 savundum. Fark\u0131ndal\u0131kla ya\u015faman\u0131n, hayat\u0131n her an\u0131n\u0131n hakk\u0131n\u0131 vererek ya\u015fam s\u00fcrmenin \u00f6zg\u00fcrle\u015ftirici, huzur ve mutluluk verici oldu\u011funu savunan biri olarak, geriye bak\u0131yorum&#8230; \u00d6zg\u00fcrce, huzurla, mutlulukla, mutlak fark\u0131ndal\u0131k ve oto-kontrol ile s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011fum y\u0131llara bak\u0131yorum&#8230; Do\u011frusu, bu bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131yla ka\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131ndas\u0131n deseler, 20 gibi bir ya\u015f derim&#8230; Yani, diyece\u011fim o ki, en fazla 20 y\u0131ld\u0131r hayat\u0131m\u0131 hakk\u0131n\u0131 vererek ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yleyebilirim. Se\u00e7imlerimden, kararlar\u0131mdan, arzu ve tutkular\u0131mdan kesin emin olarak, ve kendim i\u00e7in ya\u015famay\u0131 se\u00e7erek ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim y\u0131llardan bahsediyorum&#8230; hepi topu 20 y\u0131l&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Neden mi&#8230; \u015f\u00f6yle&#8230; hayat\u0131m\u0131n ilk 10 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 nerdeyse hi\u00e7 hat\u0131rlam\u0131yorum. Par\u00e7alar halinde, bana aktar\u0131lanlara dayanarak bir nosyonum var diyebilirim&#8230; 10 ya\u015f\u0131mda, hatta tam tam\u0131na 40 sene \u00f6nce bug\u00fcn -24 Haziran 1980\u2019de \u0130srael\u2019e gitti\u011fimiz g\u00fcne kadar ki k\u0131sm\u0131 haf\u0131zamdan silmi\u015fim&#8230; Gitti mi bir 10 y\u0131l! Hahhahhhaha&#8230;. Ard\u0131ndan, 20\u2019lerine kadar nerdeyse her ergen i\u00e7in hayat karma\u015f\u0131k ve anla\u015f\u0131lmas\u0131 zor, hep ke\u015fifle ge\u00e7en, ve bir \u015fekilde do\u011fru yolu tutturabilmek i\u00e7in gereksiz \u00e7aba ve emek gerektiren, ancak fark\u0131ndal\u0131k ve bilin\u00e7le de\u011fil de tamam\u0131yla hormonlar\u0131n g\u00fcd\u00fcm\u00fcnde seyreden bir d\u00f6nem oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce, hayat\u0131 ne kadar hakk\u0131n\u0131 vererek ya\u015fad\u0131m dersen, %50 derim&#8230; 20\u2019lerimde hala ke\u015fifle devam eden y\u0131llar\u0131n, sa\u00e7malamalar\u0131n, deli doluluklar\u0131n bol oldu\u011fu, bir yandan da sosyal normlar\u0131n ve gerekliliklerin \u00fczerimde bask\u0131 yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00f6nemde, hakk\u0131n\u0131 vererek ya\u015famak o kadar da kolay olmad\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>Sonu\u00e7ta, 20\u2019li ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n bir k\u0131sm\u0131 yine fark\u0131ndal\u0131k bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan tam ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f diyemem&#8230; Geriye, 30\u2019lar\u0131m\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndan itibaren, son 20 sene kald\u0131&#8230; \u0130\u015fte, son 20 senedir, hayat\u0131n hakk\u0131n\u0131 vererek, fark\u0131ndal\u0131k kavram\u0131yla hen\u00fcz tan\u0131\u015fmasam da, ya\u015fam felsefesi olarak hayat\u0131ma uyarlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u0131llar diyebilirim. Kendim i\u00e7in, kendimce do\u011fru geleni se\u00e7erek, ve tabii ki b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn hayr\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zeterek, dolu dolu ya\u015fad\u0131m&#8230; \u015eu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yazarken bile geldi\u011fim \u015fu ana kadar, her an\u0131 keyifle, ac\u0131yla, ini\u015fle ve \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015fla, her haliyle ya\u015fad\u0131m&#8230; Ya\u015f\u0131yorum&#8230;. \u00d6zg\u00fcrce&#8230; Huzurla&#8230; Mutlulukla&#8230; Bunu bana sa\u011flayan bir \u00e7ok olanak var&#8230; En ba\u015fta, kendim! Sonras\u0131nda beni \u00e7evreleyen m\u00fcthi\u015f insanlar! Beni ben i\u00e7in seven, oldu\u011fum gibi kabul eden, ve de\u011fer veren insanlar&#8230; Ayn\u0131 benim kendimi kendim oldu\u011fum i\u00e7in sevdi\u011fim gibi&#8230; kabul etti\u011fim gibi&#8230; de\u011fer verdi\u011fim gibi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Fark\u0131ndal\u0131kla ya\u015faman\u0131n daha \u00f6tesinde, son 10 sene yapt\u0131klar\u0131ma, \u00fcstesinden geldi\u011fim olaylara, edindi\u011fim kazan\u0131mlara bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, kendimi a\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 s\u00f6yleyebilirim&#8230; Son 10 seneyi g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011fe kaydetsem, \u00e7ok malzeme \u00e7\u0131kar&#8230; 41 ya\u015f\u0131mda Doktoraya kalk\u0131\u015fmam, 6 sene sonra Doktor unvan\u0131m\u0131 almam, 47 ya\u015f\u0131mda Barcelona\u2019ya ta\u015f\u0131nmam, sil ba\u015ftan yoktan var ederek yeni bir ya\u015fam kurmam, yeni dil \u00f6\u011frenip tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m memlekette \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmaya ba\u015flamam, ard\u0131ndan ev ta\u015f\u0131mam ve daha da yerle\u015fme ad\u0131mlar\u0131 atmam&#8230; hepsi bu son 10 senede oldu&#8230; Son 10 sene beni ve hayat\u0131m\u0131 ta\u00e7land\u0131rd\u0131 diyebilirim&#8230; hele ki son 1 sene, 24 Haziran 2019\u2019da yeni ev maceras\u0131yla ba\u015flayan ve m\u00fcthi\u015f duygusal ve ruhsal d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmlerin tetiklendi\u011fi 365 g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcnce, yeniden do\u011fu\u015f diyebilirim&#8230; Hayat\u0131mda \u201cThe Big Bang of My Little Life\u201d diye nitelendirdi\u011fim d\u00f6n\u00fcm noktas\u0131yla daha da zirve yapan, ve ard\u0131ndan Covid-19 karantina d\u00f6nemiyle ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcme bak\u0131nca, benim i\u00e7in m\u00fcthi\u015f \u00f6tesi bir y\u0131l diyebilirim&#8230; Yani, diyece\u011fim o ki, son 10 y\u0131l\u0131n son 3 senesi, ve \u00f6zellikle son 1 senesi ta\u00e7land\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 oldu!<\/p>\n<p>\u0130\u015fte&#8230; biyolojik olarak 50 ya\u015f\u0131mday\u0131m&#8230; 40 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyorum&#8230; 30\u2019lar\u0131mda hissediyorum&#8230; ve fark\u0131ndal\u0131kla 20 ya\u015f\u0131mday\u0131m&#8230; Dahas\u0131, hayat\u0131mda fark yaratmakla 10 ya\u015f\u0131mday\u0131m&#8230; Bakal\u0131m, gelecek 10 y\u0131l, 20 y\u0131l, 30 y\u0131l hayat bana neler sunacak&#8230; Kesin biliyorum ki, harika \u00f6tesi olacak&#8230; Belki Benjamin Button\u2019\u0131n hikayesi gibi, ya\u015f\u0131m artt\u0131k\u00e7a giderek daha rafine olaca\u011f\u0131m bir olma haline erece\u011fim, ve tam olaca\u011f\u0131m&#8230; O g\u00fcnleri kaleme almak, kal\u0131c\u0131 k\u0131lmak da ayr\u0131 bir yol olacak&#8230; Yazmaya devam&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>1 Temmuz 2020<br \/>\nBarcelona\u2019dan Shirli<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(Yazar\u0131 sesli dinlemek i\u00e7in t\u0131klay\u0131n.) Bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 Barcelona\u2019da, takribi 80 g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc karantinada ge\u00e7irdi\u011fim evimde yemek masamda oturmu\u015f yaz\u0131yorum. Muhtemelen de, bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 ancak her \u015feyin yolunda gitti\u011fi taktirde, 1 Temmuz 2020 g\u00fcn\u00fcnde, ben Barcelona\u2019dan \u0130stanbul\u2019a u\u00e7arken okuyor olacaks\u0131n\u0131z&#8230; Bug\u00fcn 24 Haziran 2020&#8230; \u00c7ar\u015famba&#8230; Tam\u0131 tam\u0131na 50 y\u0131l \u00f6nce bug\u00fcn, saat 19:32\u2019de d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f, ilk [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":5679,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[114],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5823","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5823","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5823"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5823\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5934,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5823\/revisions\/5934"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5679"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5823"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5823"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5823"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}