{"id":4906,"date":"2020-12-29T15:55:47","date_gmt":"2020-12-29T15:55:47","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/?p=4906\/"},"modified":"2021-04-09T15:57:52","modified_gmt":"2021-04-09T15:57:52","slug":"hosca-kal-2020","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/hosca-kal-2020\/","title":{"rendered":"Ho\u015f\u00e7a Kal 2020…"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Yazar\u0131 sesli dinlemek i\u00e7in t\u0131klay\u0131n.)<\/p>\n

\u0130nan\u0131lmaz de\u011fil mi? 2020 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131n sonuna geldik… \u201cB\u00f6ylesi kaotik bir y\u0131l\u0131n sonunda… iyi ki bitti ve sa\u011f \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k demek g\u00fczel!\u201d dedi bu sabah annem. Hakl\u0131! \u0130lk g\u00fcnlerinden ba\u015flayarak, ister ciddi ister mizahi \u00fcslupla olsun, nerdeyse hepimiz 2020\u2019ye serzeni\u015fle ve t\u00fckenmi\u015flikle bakt\u0131k. Do\u011frudur, 2020 \u00e7ok h\u0131rpalad\u0131; bolluk, bereket, ne\u015fe, gezme, ve e\u011flence beklerken evde karantina, yokluk, darl\u0131k, k\u0131s\u0131tlanma, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131, ve kay\u0131plarla burun buruna kald\u0131k. Hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n en zorlay\u0131c\u0131 ve \u015fa\u015f\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 tam bir ser\u00fcven gibi ya\u015fad\u0131k… K\u0131sa bir ara\u015ft\u0131rma yap\u0131lsa, d\u00fcnya n\u00fcfusunun b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011fu bu y\u0131l\u0131 haf\u0131zalardan yok etmeyi isteyecektir. \u015eurac\u0131kta 2021\u2019e iki \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn kala, akl\u0131ma \u00e7ok eski ve b\u00fcy\u00fcl\u00fc bir hikaye geldi; ismi B\u00fcy\u00fc D\u00fckkan\u0131<\/em> (Ye\u015fim T\u00fcrk\u00f6z, 1998).<\/p>\n

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Hikaye uzak diyarlarda bir \u00fclkede, \u201cB\u00fcy\u00fc Vadisi\u201d olarak an\u0131lan bir yerde ge\u00e7er. Ona bu ad\u0131 veren ise, vadideki ilgin\u00e7 d\u00fckkan ile, bu d\u00fckkanda ya\u015fananlard\u0131r. D\u00fckkan sahibi ak sa\u00e7l\u0131, ak sakall\u0131 bir ihtiyard\u0131r. D\u00fckkan\u0131n i\u00e7i sahibi kadar eski ve bir o kadar d\u00fczenlidir. Bir insan\u0131n sahip olmak istedi\u011fi her \u015fey vard\u0131r bu d\u00fckkanda \u2013isteyip de sahip olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131, sahip olup da kaybetti\u011fi, veya sahip oldu\u011fu ama kurtulmak istedi\u011fi \u015feyler… M\u00fc\u015fteri istedi\u011fi her \u015feyi alma \u015fans\u0131na sahiptir, bedelini \u00f6dedi\u011fi taktirde. Bedelin ne olaca\u011f\u0131, d\u00fckkan sahibi ile m\u00fc\u015fteri aras\u0131nda ge\u00e7en pazarl\u0131k sonucu ortaya \u00e7\u0131kar.<\/p>\n

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G\u00fcnlerden so\u011fuk karl\u0131 bir k\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc, orta ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir erkek m\u00fc\u015fteri gelir. \u201c\u00dcn\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc \u00e7ok duydum, uzaklardan kalk\u0131p geldim. Elli be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131nday\u0131m, yani yolun yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ge\u00e7eli \u00e7ok oldu; sonuna yakla\u015ft\u0131m galiba. Bug\u00fcne kadarki hayat\u0131m\u0131 geri istiyorum. M\u00fcmk\u00fcn m\u00fc?<\/em>\u201d der. D\u00fckkan sahibi \u201ctabii ki m\u00fcmk\u00fcn, ancak tam ne istedi\u011finizi anlayabilmem i\u00e7in, bana geri istedi\u011finiz hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 biraz anlatabilir misiniz?<\/em>\u201d der. M\u00fc\u015fteri, h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc g\u00f6zlerle hayat\u0131n\u0131 anlatmaya ba\u015flar: \u201cGe\u00e7mi\u015f ya\u015fam\u0131mda bir \u00e7ok hata yapt\u0131m. Bunlar i\u00e7in pi\u015fmanl\u0131k duyuyorum. Yanl\u0131\u015f kararlar verdim, kay\u0131plara u\u011frad\u0131m. Zaman\u0131 hovardaca kulland\u0131m. Fark\u0131na vard\u0131m ki, hayat yan\u0131mdan ge\u00e7ip gidiyor. Geriye bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda harcanm\u0131\u015f bir hayat g\u00f6r\u00fcyorum. L\u00fctfen, elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131m\u0131 bana geri verin…<\/em>\u201d<\/p>\n

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\u0130htiyar\u0131n \u201cyani, siz pi\u015fmanl\u0131k duydu\u011funuz hayat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 yeniden mi ya\u015famak istiyorsunuz?<\/em>\u201d sorusuna, m\u00fc\u015fteri \u201celbette hay\u0131r; yaln\u0131zca kaybetti\u011fim y\u0131llar\u0131 geri istiyorum. E\u011fer bir \u015fans\u0131m daha olursa, ayn\u0131 hatalar\u0131 tekrarlamayaca\u011f\u0131m<\/em>\u201d diye yan\u0131tlar, ve \u201cbana verece\u011finiz elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda size ne isterseniz vermeye haz\u0131r\u0131m<\/em>.\u201d der. Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam ellerini sakallar\u0131nda dola\u015ft\u0131rarak al\u00e7ak sesle \u201cBeyefendi, siz elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda her \u015feyinizi vermeyi haz\u0131r olsan\u0131z da, ben sizden bir tek \u015fey isteyece\u011fim; belle\u011finizi. Elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131n ya\u015fant\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7inde bar\u0131nd\u0131ran belle\u011finizi istiyorum<\/em>\u201d der. \u201cTamam<\/em>\u201d der m\u00fc\u015fteri. \u0130htiyar \u201cBelle\u011finizi, i\u00e7indeki her \u015feyle birlikte bu d\u00fckkanda b\u0131rak\u0131p gideceksiniz. Elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131n tek bir an\u0131n\u0131 bile hat\u0131rlamayacaks\u0131n\u0131z,<\/em>\u201d deyince, m\u00fc\u015fteri sab\u0131rs\u0131zl\u0131kla, \u201cDaha iyi ya! Her \u015feye yeniden ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131m. Zaten ge\u00e7mi\u015fi hat\u0131rlamak istemiyorum ki! \u015eu dakika belle\u011fimi size b\u0131rak\u0131p elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131m\u0131 geri alaca\u011f\u0131m ve d\u00fckkan\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 bir daha d\u00f6nmemek \u00fczere terk edece\u011fim<\/em>\u201d deyip pazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 sona erdirmeye u\u011fra\u015f\u0131r.<\/p>\n

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Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam sakinlikle \u201c\u0130sterseniz ba\u015fka s\u00f6zler vermeyin. Korkar\u0131m elli be\u015f y\u0131l sonra buraya tekrar geleceksiniz. Zira, az sonra belle\u011finizle birlikte b\u00fct\u00fcn hepsini burada b\u0131rak\u0131p gideceksiniz.<\/em>\u201d der. M\u00fc\u015fteri pazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n sonuna geldi\u011fini anlar ve bir an duraksay\u0131p geri ad\u0131m atar. \u201cSan\u0131r\u0131m ne demek istedi\u011finizi \u015fimdi anl\u0131yorum. E\u011fer elli be\u015f y\u0131l\u0131n bedeli bu ise, pes ediyorum! Belle\u011fimden, ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015fl\u0131klar\u0131mdan vazge\u00e7emem! Ben bug\u00fcne kadarki ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 almak i\u00e7in gelmi\u015ftim, ancak bug\u00fcnden sonraki ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131 geri al\u0131p gidiyorum… Size te\u015fekk\u00fcr ederim.<\/em>\u201d diyerek kap\u0131ya y\u00f6nelir. Ya\u015fl\u0131 adam, \u201cBir \u015fey de\u011fil. G\u00fczel bir pazarl\u0131kt\u0131. Ho\u015f\u00e7a kal\u0131n.<\/em>\u201d diyerek m\u00fc\u015fterisini u\u011furlar.<\/p>\n

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\u00d6yk\u00fc burada biter. Ancak her birimizin ya\u015famla olan pazarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 devam eder… \u00a0Bu senenin bize ya\u015fatt\u0131klar\u0131na bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, bize katt\u0131klar\u0131ndan \u00e7ok bizden al\u0131p g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcklerini g\u00f6rmemiz, b\u00fcy\u00fc d\u00fckkan\u0131na giren m\u00fc\u015fterinin hallerini an\u0131msat\u0131yor bana… Bu y\u0131la ithaf edilen karikat\u00fcrler ve mizah unsurlar\u0131 da cabas\u0131… \u201c2020 y\u0131l\u0131, ya\u015fan\u0131lan felaketler nedeniyle 2021\u2019e ertelendi… 2020 y\u0131l\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131ma saym\u0131yorum, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc hi\u00e7 kullanmad\u0131m…\u201d <\/em><\/p>\n

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Ku\u015fkusuz, bu y\u0131l\u0131 hepimiz kulland\u0131k! T\u00fcm \u201ckorkun\u00e7lu\u011fuyla\u201d yer y\u00fcz\u00fcnde ya\u015fayan her bireye \u00e7ok \u015fey katt\u0131, f\u0131rsatlar yaratt\u0131, ve d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcme vesile oldu. Bir \u00e7ok \u015feyi g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc gibi \u00f6d\u00fcllendirici de oldu. Hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 yeniden g\u00f6zden ge\u00e7irmemize neden oldu; isteyip de sahip olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feylerden, sahip olup da kaybettiklerimizden, veya sahip olup da kurtulmak istediklerimizden vazge\u00e7meyi \u00f6\u011fretti. Belki de bu y\u0131l, di\u011fer y\u0131llardan \u00e7ok farkl\u0131 olarak, kendimiz ve sevdiklerimiz i\u00e7in ger\u00e7ekte neyin k\u0131ymetli oldu\u011funu hat\u0131rlatt\u0131. Temel ihtiya\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131lama g\u00fcd\u00fcs\u00fcyle t\u00fcketmeye, ve kendiyle b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcn hayr\u0131na fayda sa\u011flama motivasyonuyla \u00fcretmeye y\u00f6nlendirdi bizi.<\/p>\n

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2020\u2019nin arma\u011fanlarla dolu oldu\u011funu y\u0131l boyu yapt\u0131klar\u0131ma bak\u0131nca daha iyi anlad\u0131m. \u00dcrettiklerimi listeledim ve belki de son 10-20 y\u0131l\u0131m\u0131n en verimli ve \u00fcretken y\u0131l\u0131 oldu. Kayda de\u011fer neler mi yapm\u0131\u015f\u0131m?<\/p>\n