{"id":4857,"date":"2020-10-21T10:27:04","date_gmt":"2020-10-21T10:27:04","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/?p=4857\/"},"modified":"2020-11-25T10:27:39","modified_gmt":"2020-11-25T10:27:39","slug":"yeniden-mi-basliyoruz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/yeniden-mi-basliyoruz\/","title":{"rendered":"Yeniden mi Ba\u015fl\u0131yoruz&#8230;!!!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>(Yazar\u0131 sesli dinlemek i\u00e7in t\u0131klay\u0131n)<br \/>\n<audio class=\"wp-audio-shortcode\" id=\"audio-4857-1\" preload=\"none\" style=\"width: 100%;\" controls=\"controls\"><source type=\"audio\/mpeg\" src=\"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/11\/16-Yeniden-mi-Basliyoruz.m4a?_=1\" \/><a href=\"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/11\/16-Yeniden-mi-Basliyoruz.m4a\">https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/11\/16-Yeniden-mi-Basliyoruz.m4a<\/a><\/audio><\/p>\n<p>Bir \u00f6nceki yaz\u0131mda ka\u00e7\u0131rma duygusundan bahsederken, farkl\u0131 yerlerde olabilece\u011fim ve yapabilece\u011fim \u015feylerden \u00f6rnekler vermi\u015ftim&#8230; \u00d6rneklerden biri de, \u201cCovid-19\u2019dan (veya herhangi ba\u015fka bir sebepten) yatak d\u00f6\u015fek dinlenme halinde de olabilirim&#8230;\u201d s\u00f6ylemiydi&#8230; Bunu hi\u00e7 istemedi\u011fimi s\u00f6ylemi\u015f olsam da, sanki kendime \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131m gibi, verdi\u011fim \u00f6rnek ba\u015f\u0131ma  geldi! Neye niyet neye k\u0131smet&#8230; A\u011f\u0131r bir grip, nezle, \u00f6ks\u00fcr\u00fck, ve \u00e7ok hafif ate\u015f beni yata\u011f\u0131ma m\u0131hlad\u0131! Di\u011fer yandan, ikinci Covid-19 dalgas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 yeni \u00f6nlem ve uygulamalar y\u00fcr\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe konmaya ba\u015fland\u0131. \u00c7ar\u015famba g\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131klan\u0131p Cuma sabah\u0131 (16 Ekim 2020) y\u00fcr\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe giren k\u0131s\u0131tlama uygulamalar\u0131 kapsam\u0131nda Katalunya b\u00f6lgesinde t\u00fcm restoran, bar, kafe, g\u00fczellik ve bak\u0131m merkezleri, e\u011flence yerleri iki hafta s\u00fcreli\u011fine kapand\u0131. Hadi bakal\u0131m&#8230; yeniden mi ba\u015fl\u0131yoruz ne&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>13 Mart 2020 g\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00fcm \u0130spanya\u2019n\u0131n karantinaya giri\u015finden takribi \u00fc\u00e7 ay sonra \u201cyeni normal\u201de ge\u00e7mi\u015ftik&#8230; Hayat \u201cs\u00fcper\u201d olmasa da, sahip olduklar\u0131m\u0131za ve yeniden kavu\u015ftuklar\u0131m\u0131za bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda \u201cnimet\u201d oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yleyebilirim. Aradan aylar ge\u00e7ti, yeni normal \u201cnorm\u201d oldu&#8230; \u00c7o\u011fumuzun akl\u0131nda \u201cbir daha Mart Nisan aylar\u0131nda ya\u015fad\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131za d\u00f6nmeyiz\u201d alg\u0131s\u0131 varken, ikinci Covid-19 dalgas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 yeni \u00f6nlem ve uygulamalar\u0131n y\u00fcr\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe konmaya ba\u015flamas\u0131 tabii ki de moralleri bozmaya yetti. Barcelona \u015fa\u015fk\u0131nl\u0131k, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc ve sessiz bir isyan duygusuyla Per\u015fembe g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcn boyu ve ak\u015fam d\u0131\u015far\u0131lardayd\u0131&#8230; Kendim de dahil herkes, \u201ckapanmadan\u201d \u00f6nce \u00f6zg\u00fcrce son bir kahve keyfi veya son bir ak\u015fam yeme\u011fi i\u00e7in t\u00fcm masalar\u0131 doldurduk, ta\u015f\u0131rd\u0131k&#8230; \u0130ki hafta s\u00fcrecek dense de, bu kapanman\u0131n ne kadar s\u00fcrece\u011fi ve yeniden a\u00e7\u0131laca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kimse bilmiyor! <\/p>\n<p>Bu belirsizlik, bir yandan bir ku\u015fku ve hayat\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rma kayg\u0131s\u0131na itiyor; ama di\u011fer yandan, \u201cbu yoldan ge\u00e7tik&#8230; deneyimliyiz&#8230; \u00f6nceki gibi haz\u0131rl\u0131ks\u0131z ve acemi de\u011filiz&#8230; hatta ne  yapmam\u0131z gerekti\u011fini biliyoruz \u201d bilincini ya\u015fat\u0131yor. \u0130ki hafta dedikleri s\u00fcre iki \u00fc\u00e7 aya \u00e7\u0131kar m\u0131 diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcyor&#8230; S\u00fcrebilir de, s\u00fcrmeyebilir de&#8230; S\u0131n\u0131rlar kapanabilir de, kapanmayabilir de&#8230; (Ki, s\u0131n\u0131rlar\u0131 kapatma noktas\u0131na gelece\u011fini pek \u00f6ng\u00f6rm\u00fcyorum, ama daha \u00f6nce olduysa yeniden olabilir fikrine de haz\u0131r\u0131m!) Akl\u0131mdan t\u00fcrl\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceler ge\u00e7erken, ister istemez zihnim, flashback sahnesi gibi, karantinaya girdi\u011fimiz ilk g\u00fcnlere ve deneyimlerime ka\u00e7\u0131p gidiyor&#8230; Hele ki bug\u00fcn\u00fcn Cumartesi olmas\u0131ndan m\u00fctevelli, karantinaya giri\u015fimizin 7.nc\u00fc g\u00fcn\u00fcne (21 Mart 2020) ve Korona G\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcme yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m yaz\u0131ya akl\u0131m kay\u0131yor. Muhtemelen, karantina g\u00fcnlerimden ve g\u00fcnl\u00fcklerimden en \u00e7arp\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 olsa gerek&#8230; Bana hayattay\u0131m dedirten, beni en \u00e7ok heyecanland\u0131ran ve ne\u015felendiren g\u00fcn. \u0130\u015fte g\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden bir par\u00e7a&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>\u201c21 Mart 2020, G\u00fcn #7<br \/>\nBirinci haftay\u0131 doldurduk&#8230; evden \u00e7\u0131kmayal\u0131 9 g\u00fcn oldu. Yeni rutine o kadar adapte olmu\u015fum ki, eskisi yabanc\u0131 geliyor. Bug\u00fcn\u00fcn tek fark\u0131 var, bug\u00fcn Cumartesi&#8230; hafta sonu&#8230; yeeeyyyy&#8230;. :)))<\/p>\n<p> G\u00fcne erken ba\u015flamak g\u00fczel; balkona, nefesimle ve kendimle bulu\u015fmaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131m&#8230; ortal\u0131k sessiz ve sakinken, zihnim de kalbim de daha sakin&#8230; ve karar verdim, bug\u00fcn Cumartesi, tatil g\u00fcn\u00fc, 9.ncu g\u00fcn, kendime \u00f6d\u00fcl vermeliyim&#8230; bug\u00fcn\u00fc, bir ka\u00e7 saatli\u011fine dahi olsa, rutinin d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda ya\u015famal\u0131y\u0131m&#8230; <\/p>\n<p>Elime \u00e7antam\u0131, ceketimi, dezenfektan, eldiven, maske, anahtarlar ve at\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmal\u0131k bir ka\u00e7 \u0131v\u0131r z\u0131v\u0131r\u0131 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi arabaya bindim sahile gittim. Barceloneta sahili&#8230; yollar bombo\u015f, ne insan var ne araba&#8230; \u015fehir ya uykuda ya da karantina&#8217;da\u2026!!!<\/p>\n<p>Su\u00e7luluk duygusuyla kar\u0131\u015f\u0131k bir heyecan&#8230; kalbim p\u0131r p\u0131r at\u0131yor&#8230; sahildeyim. P\u0131r\u0131l p\u0131r\u0131l parlayan g\u00fcne\u015f kumsala, denize ve y\u00fcz\u00fcme vuruyor&#8230; &#8220;oohhh&#8230; d\u00fcnya varm\u0131\u015f, i\u015fte hayat bu!&#8221; dedirtecek kadar huzurlu ve \u00f6zg\u00fcrle\u015ftirici&#8230; \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr!<\/p>\n<p>Kumsalda en sevdi\u011fim ve rahatlat\u0131c\u0131 \u015fey, sahilde dalgalar\u0131n geli\u015fini gidi\u015fini izlemek, ve \u00e7\u0131plak ayakla \u0131slak kum \u00fcst\u00fcnde y\u00fcr\u00fcyerek dalgalar\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131ma vuru\u015funu hissetmek\u2026 su buz gibi! Dalgan\u0131n sahile vuru\u015funu, olu\u015fan k\u00f6p\u00fckleri, sonras\u0131nda yava\u015f yava\u015f da\u011f\u0131l\u0131p yok olu\u015flar\u0131n\u0131, sonra yeni bir dalgan\u0131n geli\u015fiyle yeni k\u00f6p\u00fcklerin olu\u015fumu, ve sonras\u0131nda yok olu\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 izlemek&#8230; zihnime bir terapi gibi&#8230;. saatlerce izleyebilirim\u2026. Kim bilir ne kadar s\u00fcreyle orada durmu\u015f, ayaklar\u0131m suda, kuma g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc, dalgalar\u0131n geli\u015f-gidi\u015fini izledim\u2026. her dalga geli\u015finde, k\u00f6p\u00fcklerin belirip yok olu\u015fu, kum taneciklerin ayak parmaklar\u0131m\u0131n aras\u0131na girmeleri, bir k\u0131sm\u0131n\u0131n ak\u0131nt\u0131yla kurtulup gidi\u015fleri\u2026  g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc hep ayn\u0131, sanki bir birini tekrar eden tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f plak gibi\u2026 bizim karantina g\u00fcnleri gibi!<\/p>\n<p>Ama yok, bug\u00fcn farkl\u0131, d\u0131\u015far\u0131dayd\u0131m ve deniz kenar\u0131nda kendime bir iyotlu oksijen ziyafeti \u00e7ektim\u2026 ufu\u011fa bak\u0131p denizle g\u00f6\u011f\u00fcn birle\u015fti\u011fi noktaya dald\u0131m\u2026 denizde hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey yok\u2026 d\u00fcmd\u00fcz\u2026 alabildi\u011fince mavi ve maviii\u2026. bu karenin i\u00e7inde bir yelkenli olsayd\u0131&#8230; i\u015fte m\u00fckemmel olacakt\u0131! Ufu\u011fun i\u00e7ine dalm\u0131\u015f, huzuru i\u00e7ime ald\u0131m\u2026 nefes al\u0131p verdim\u2026 i\u00e7ime, damarlar\u0131ma, ci\u011ferlerime, kalbime, parmak u\u00e7lar\u0131ma kadar en k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck uzvuma kadar enerji depolad\u0131m\u2026. <\/p>\n<p>Zaman ve mekandan t\u00fcm\u00fcyle kopuk, \u00f6ylece d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelere dalm\u0131\u015fken, birden arkamdan bir ses: \u201canneeee\u2026hadi kahvalt\u0131 edelim!\u201d, ve hemen ard\u0131ndan, \u201cK\u0131z\u0131m b\u0131rak anneni, meditasyon yap\u0131yor, bitirince gelir\u2026\u201d diyor\u2026 g\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7\u0131p, etraf\u0131ma bakt\u0131m\u2026 balkonumdaki sandalyemdeyim\u2026 \u201ctamam, iki dakika izin verin, geliyorum\u201d deyip, zihnimde \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131m yolculu\u011fu, ka\u00e7ama\u011f\u0131, ve bende yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hisleri sentezledim. Ger\u00e7ekten gittim mi oralara? Ger\u00e7ek ile hayalin fark\u0131 ne? Peki ya hislerim, depolad\u0131\u011f\u0131m enerji, tatt\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck hissi, rutinin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00f6zg\u00fcrce istedi\u011fimi yapm\u0131\u015f olma mutlulu\u011fu, ve gelecek g\u00fcnlerin getirece\u011fi belirsizliklere kar\u015f\u0131n bir ka\u00e7 dakika veya saatte (zaman kavram\u0131na girmeyece\u011fim bile) biriktirdi\u011fim umut\u2026. bunlar hepsi benimle beraber\u2026 ve gayet de ger\u00e7ek! <\/p>\n<p>Sonu\u00e7ta, sanal ger\u00e7eklik (virtual reality), sinema, tiyatro, TV, kitap, vs. ile bulundu\u011fumuz fiziksel mekan\u0131m\u0131za ra\u011fmen, ba\u015fka bir ger\u00e7ekli\u011fe gidebiliyorsak madem, neden kendi zihnimizin yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hayali ger\u00e7ekli\u011fiyle yolculu\u011fa \u00e7\u0131kam\u0131yoruz\u2026Hele ki, \u015fu zorlu g\u00fcnlerimizde, tak\u0131lm\u0131\u015f plak gibi ayn\u0131 g\u00fcne kalkt\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrsek\u2026Her \u015fey bize ve zihnimize oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z oyunlara ba\u011fl\u0131\u2026.\u201d<br \/>\nG\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm daha devam ediyor&#8230; ancak bug\u00fcne gelirsem, burada alt\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7izmek istedi\u011fim olgu asl\u0131nda \u015fu: Duygular\u0131m\u0131z ve olaylara kar\u015f\u0131 verdi\u011fimiz yan\u0131tlar \u00e7er\u00e7evesinde ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z deneyimlerimizin \u015fekli bizim elimizde&#8230; Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00f6zlem duygusundan tutun, hayat\u0131 ka\u00e7\u0131rma duygusuyla ge\u00e7mi\u015fin pi\u015fmanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 veya gelecek kayg\u0131s\u0131 hepsi zihnimizin yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve bize inand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 senaryolardan ibaret. Ayn\u0131 benim hayalimde sahile gidi\u015fimle yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131m ve zihnime ve t\u00fcm bedenime inand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m mutluluk verici deneyim gibi. Se\u00e7im bize ait, ya ipleri ele al\u0131p zihnimize oyun oynayaca\u011f\u0131z; ya da zihnimizin bize oyununu oynamas\u0131na devam etmesine izin verece\u011fiz.  <\/p>\n<p>Barcelona\u2019dan sevgiler&#8230;<br \/>\n21 Ekim 2020<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(Yazar\u0131 sesli dinlemek i\u00e7in t\u0131klay\u0131n) Bir \u00f6nceki yaz\u0131mda ka\u00e7\u0131rma duygusundan bahsederken, farkl\u0131 yerlerde olabilece\u011fim ve yapabilece\u011fim \u015feylerden \u00f6rnekler vermi\u015ftim&#8230; \u00d6rneklerden biri de, \u201cCovid-19\u2019dan (veya herhangi ba\u015fka bir sebepten) yatak d\u00f6\u015fek dinlenme halinde de olabilirim&#8230;\u201d s\u00f6ylemiydi&#8230; Bunu hi\u00e7 istemedi\u011fimi s\u00f6ylemi\u015f olsam da, sanki kendime \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u0131m gibi, verdi\u011fim \u00f6rnek ba\u015f\u0131ma geldi! Neye niyet neye k\u0131smet&#8230; A\u011f\u0131r bir [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4859,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[114],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4857","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4857","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4857"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4857\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4860,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4857\/revisions\/4860"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/4859"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4857"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4857"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4857"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}