{"id":4809,"date":"2020-08-26T11:50:11","date_gmt":"2020-08-26T11:50:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/?p=4809\/"},"modified":"2020-11-06T17:19:43","modified_gmt":"2020-11-06T17:19:43","slug":"ozledimmm-mi-dediniz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/ozledimmm-mi-dediniz\/","title":{"rendered":"\u201c\u00d6zledimmm….\u201d mi dediniz?"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Yazar\u0131 sesli dinlemek i\u00e7in t\u0131klay\u0131n.)
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\u015eu s\u0131ra nedense zihnimde dilime dolanm\u0131\u015f bir \u015fark\u0131 gibi \u201cTa\u015f yerinde a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r\u201d atas\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0131nl\u0131yor. Her \u015feyin yerinde g\u00fczel oldu\u011funu, \u00f6nem ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, de\u011fer g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, ve anlam kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ifade eden bir atas\u00f6z\u00fc… Bir \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde, her \u015feyin ortaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kendi ortam\u0131nda ve ait oldu\u011fu yerde serpilip geli\u015fti\u011fini ve anlam kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. Bana \u201c\u015fimdi ve burada olma\u201d (Mindfulness) felsefesini \u00e7a\u011fr\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131yor… yani, hayatta ger\u00e7ek de\u011ferin bulundu\u011fun mekan ve an\u0131n i\u00e7inde gizli oldu\u011funu ifade ediyor. <\/p>\n

Bu atas\u00f6z\u00fc de nerden geldi akl\u0131na diyeceksiniz… Her \u015fey Covid-19 karantina d\u00f6neminden \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p T\u00fcrkiye\u2019ye geli\u015fim ve \u00f6zledi\u011fim insanlara, mekanlara ve tatlara kavu\u015fmamla ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu sayede, \u00f6zlem duygusuyla ilgili yeni bir fark\u0131ndal\u0131\u011fa erdim… Mindfulness felsefesiyle harmanlay\u0131nca, \u201c\u00f6zlem\u201din farkl\u0131 y\u00fczlerini g\u00f6r\u00fcr oldum… \u00d6zledi\u011fim ki\u015filerle g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015ft\u00fck\u00e7e, \u00f6zledi\u011fim mekanlarda bulunduk\u00e7a ve \u00f6zledi\u011fim tatlar\u0131n yeniden zevkine vard\u0131k\u00e7a, onlar\u0131 sand\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan \u00e7ok daha fazla \u00f6zlemi\u015f oldu\u011fumu anlad\u0131m… Fark\u0131na vard\u0131m ki, uzaktayken duymu\u015f oldu\u011fum \u00f6zlem ile an\u0131n i\u00e7inde \u00f6zlemimi giderirken hissetti\u011fim \u00f6zlem duygusu aras\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fck fark varm\u0131\u015f… Hatta, zihnen ve ruhen t\u00fcm\u00fcyle anda kald\u0131\u011f\u0131mda hi\u00e7 bir \u015fey i\u00e7in \u00f6zlem duygusu ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 fark ettim. Me\u011fer, \u00f6zlem duygusu sadece ve sadece bir uyaran sayesinde tetikleniyormu\u015f… ve o \u015fekilde i\u00e7imizde hayat buluyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n

Kabul ediyorum, bunlar fazlas\u0131yla soyut ka\u00e7\u0131yor… Gelin bir ka\u00e7 soru ve k\u0131sa bir hikayeyle akl\u0131mdakini somutla\u015ft\u0131ray\u0131m… Mesela, hi\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn\u00fcz m\u00fc, \u00f6zlemek nedir? Bir \u015feyi, ki\u015fiyi, yeri veya tad\u0131 \u00f6zledi\u011finizde nas\u0131l hissediyorsunuz? Peki ya, \u00f6zlem duydu\u011funuzu nas\u0131l anl\u0131yorsunuz? \u00d6zlem hissi hangi an veya noktada ger\u00e7ekten ba\u015fl\u0131yor? Yan\u0131tlamas\u0131 zor gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyor… \u0130lgin\u00e7 bir \u015fekilde, Covid-19 karantina d\u00f6neminde d\u00f6rt ay boyunca sab\u0131r ve \u00f6zlemle sevdiklerime kavu\u015fmay\u0131 bekledi\u011fim, sonras\u0131nda bulu\u015ftu\u011fum, ard\u0131ndan kendi kendimle kald\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u0131ralarda bu sorulara yan\u0131t buldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyorum. Yan\u0131tlar\u0131 bulmakla kalmay\u0131p, ayn\u0131 zamanda \u00f6zlem duygumu tatmin etmede ustala\u015fma yolunda ilerledi\u011fimi san\u0131yorum… \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc, bu fark\u0131ndal\u0131kla, art\u0131k, her an\u0131n tad\u0131na doyas\u0131ya var\u0131yorum… ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m tad\u0131n, duydu\u011fum kokunun, ve sar\u0131l(ama)d\u0131\u011f\u0131m ki\u015filerle beraber olman\u0131n keyfini \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131yorum… Ayn\u0131 \u015fu hikayede ge\u00e7en ki\u015finin \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi… <\/p>\n

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\nBu hikaye, \u0130stanbul\u2019da do\u011fmu\u015f, hayat\u0131n\u0131n b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00e7o\u011funlu\u011funu \u0130stanbul\u2019da ge\u00e7irmi\u015f, ve son bir ka\u00e7 y\u0131ld\u0131r yurtd\u0131\u015f\u0131nda ya\u015fay\u0131p belli aral\u0131klarla \u0130stanbul\u2019u ziyaret eden bir ki\u015fiye ait… Her yaz oldu\u011fu gibi bu yaz da ailesini, yak\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131, ve sevdi\u011fi yerler ve tatlarla yeniden bulu\u015fmak \u00fczere \u0130stanbul\u2019a gelmi\u015f. G\u00fcnlerden bir g\u00fcn arkada\u015f\u0131yla bulu\u015fmak \u00fczere Be\u015fikta\u015f-Kad\u0131k\u00f6y \u015eehir Hatlar\u0131 vapuruna binerek bo\u011faz\u0131 deniz yoluyla a\u015fm\u0131\u015f. Asl\u0131nda, tek arzusu aylard\u0131r g\u00f6rmedi\u011fi ve \u00e7ok da \u00f6zledi\u011fi arkada\u015f\u0131yla biraz bug\u00fcn\u00fc yakalamak, biraz da eski g\u00fcnleri anarak keyifli vakit ge\u00e7irmekmi\u015f. <\/p>\n

Ne ilgin\u00e7 ki, hen\u00fcz yoldayken, ne \u00e7ok \u015feyi \u00f6zlemi\u015f oldu\u011funun fark\u0131na varm\u0131\u015f… \u0130stanbul bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131n masmavi sular\u0131n\u0131… dibinde gezinen bal\u0131k s\u00fcr\u00fclerini… havada vapurun etraf\u0131nda u\u00e7arak oyna\u015fan mart\u0131lar\u0131… vapurun arkas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131kan beyaz k\u00f6p\u00fckleri… vapurun yan a\u00e7\u0131k taraf\u0131nda oturup g\u00fcne\u015f \u0131\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131 ve r\u00fczgar\u0131n y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ok\u015famas\u0131n\u0131… \u00e7\u0131t\u0131r \u00e7\u0131t\u0131r susam kapl\u0131 sokak simidi ile T\u00fcrk \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n birlikte yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 e\u015fsiz lezzeti… \u00e7evresinde T\u00fcrk\u00e7e konu\u015fmalar\u0131 duymay\u0131… ne de \u00e7ok \u00f6zlemi\u015f…<\/p>\n

Bir yandan yol al\u0131rken, bo\u011faz\u0131n iyotlu havas\u0131n\u0131 soluyup, ci\u011ferlerinin en dip k\u00f6\u015fesine kadar t\u00fcm \u015fehri i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekiyormu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na ve i\u00e7inde saklamak istiyormu\u015f\u00e7as\u0131na nefes alm\u0131\u015f ve vermi\u015f. \u0130\u015fte o ana kadar hi\u00e7 mi hi\u00e7 fark\u0131nda de\u011filmi\u015f… yirmi dakikal\u0131k basit bir vapur yolculu\u011fu bu kadar de\u011ferli ve anlaml\u0131 olsun… Hatta, bu yolculu\u011fa hi\u00e7 bir \u00f6zlem veya anlam y\u00fcklemeden, alelade bir \u201ckar\u015f\u0131ya ge\u00e7me\u201d olarak yola \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Me\u011ferse, yolculu\u011fun bar\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 her bir unsuru \u2013simidi, \u00e7ay\u0131, beyaz k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u00fc dalgalar\u0131, oyna\u015fan mart\u0131lar\u0131, vs. ne kadar da \u00f6zlemi\u015f… hatta \u00f6zlemi\u015f oldu\u011funu ancak o an\u0131 ya\u015farken, onlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, yeniden tad\u0131nca ve deneyimleyince ger\u00e7ekten \u00f6zledi\u011finin fark\u0131na varm\u0131\u015f. <\/p>\n

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\n\u0130\u015fte bu hikaye kendimizi kolayl\u0131kla i\u00e7inde bulabilece\u011fimiz bir hikaye… \u0130stanbul Bo\u011faz hatt\u0131n\u0131 veya Adalar\u0131 dola\u015fan vapura binmi\u015f olan herkesin a\u015fina oldu\u011fu k\u0131sac\u0131k bir kesit… As\u0131l can al\u0131c\u0131 soru \u015fu: Bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 okuduktan sonra i\u00e7imizde bir \u00f6zlem duygusunun canlan\u0131p canlanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131… Okuyana kadar hi\u00e7 akl\u0131m\u0131zda bile yokken \u201caahhh… orada olmak vard\u0131!\u201d hissiyat\u0131 ta\u015f\u0131y\u0131p ta\u015f\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z… Diyece\u011fim o ki, bence bir \u00f6zlem duygusu ancak onu hat\u0131rlatacak, be\u015f duyumuzla bizi uyaracak ve an\u0131lar\u0131 canland\u0131racak unsurlar\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131. <\/p>\n

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\u0130\u015fte benim \u015fu son d\u00f6nemde \u00f6zlem duygusu ile ilgili fark\u0131na vard\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fey, hi\u00e7 bir kimsenin durup dururken bir an\u0131, ki\u015fiyi, mekan\u0131 veya tad\u0131 \u00f6zlemeyece\u011fi, hatta \u00f6zleyemeyece\u011fi… Tabii ki anda kalmay\u0131 \u2013\u015fimdi ve burada olmay\u0131 hayat felsefesi edinmi\u015f olmakla ba\u011flant\u0131l\u0131. Bo\u015funa \u201cg\u00f6zden \u0131rak g\u00f6n\u00fclden \u0131rak\u201d denmemi\u015f… G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczde \u2013yani akl\u0131m\u0131zda, dikkatimizde, oda\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda, \u00e7evremizde, hatta be\u015f duyumuzla alg\u0131lad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z her \u015feyde ne varsa, g\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fczde de o var… yoksa da yok! Uzun laf\u0131n k\u0131sas\u0131, diyorum ki, \u201cg\u00f6n\u00fcl ve \u00f6zlem a\u00e7\u0131s\u0131ndan, ta\u015f ancak g\u00f6z ve dikkatin oldu\u011fu yerde a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r…\u201d Ya siz ne diyorsunuz?<\/p>\n

\u0130stanbul\u2019dan sevgiyle…
\n26 A\u011fustos 2020<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Yazar\u0131 sesli dinlemek i\u00e7in t\u0131klay\u0131n.) \u015eu s\u0131ra nedense zihnimde dilime dolanm\u0131\u015f bir \u015fark\u0131 gibi \u201cTa\u015f yerinde a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r\u201d atas\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0131nl\u0131yor. Her \u015feyin yerinde g\u00fczel oldu\u011funu, \u00f6nem ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, de\u011fer g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc, ve anlam kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ifade eden bir atas\u00f6z\u00fc… Bir \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde, her \u015feyin ortaya \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131 kendi ortam\u0131nda ve ait oldu\u011fu yerde serpilip geli\u015fti\u011fini ve anlam kazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u00fcyor. Bana \u201c\u015fimdi […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4810,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[114],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4809","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-yazilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4809","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4809"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4809\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4813,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4809\/revisions\/4813"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/4810"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4809"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4809"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mindthepositive.com\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4809"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}